accomplishments

[rlyqueer]

Watching the works count tick up yesterday on the Sundial collection was very exciting! Mine is in there somewhere, which I'm super jazzed about as my first exchange participation, and I'm also working on a treat!

I'm trying to be proud of myself for doing this much in spite of all the recent hardships. When I list everything out, it's pretty unbelievable actually. It's been a period that if I summarized it all to someone, it would sound more like the sad intro to a mediocre movie instead of a person's real actual life.

It's pretty clear that I'm being kicked in the pants to put the focus on me for a while—I'm figuring myself out and adapting to some big changes.

I'm also digging back into my projects, and first to finish is definitely this exchange treat. I think I'm about halfway through, and the creative juices are flowing (knock on wood!), so my goal is to get it submitted by midweek and have a couple days for final edits. I'm on a mission today to dive in as deep as possible and get as much done as I can before the work week starts tomorrow!

Comments

[naye]

CONGRATULATIONS on getting your story into the collection on time! And YAY for treats and creative juices.

Sorry to hear you've been having it rough. *hugs if you want them* ♥

[rlyqueer]

Thank you!!! I've said it a thousand times already but I'm so excited ahhh.

and hugs I appreciate you—everything will turn out alright and I'm gettin' through. <3

[clevermanka]

It sucks so much to be in that space of "this can't possibly be anyone's real life, much less mine." (and ugh I haaaaaaaaate emotional growth so condolences if those are appropriate and desired)

Congratulations on finishing the fic in spite of that! And doing a treat? You are a rock star.

[rlyqueer]

Oof, exactly! It's surreal. I'm doing fairly well given all the things, but I'm also a little like "alright are we done for a while, can we chill a bit now?" Looking around the corner like better not be anything more around here lol. I need a breather!

(And yeah, it's basically like. I'm going through a lot of grieving and loss lately, plus other various stressors, and I need to take some time to self-reflect, find my new footing, and ground myself. Ambivalence is a defense mechanism I've been leaning too hard on even if it's served me well, and it's time to crank that down. Ughhh so hard!)

Also WHEW thank you!! I'm doin' my best and I'm determined to get this treat finished heheh.

[clevermanka]

Ambivalence is a defense mechanism I've been leaning too hard on

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*sidles toward the door*

[rlyqueer]

Ohhh yeah, you know. 😂 Honestly it's such a good tool, but boy does it sneak up as a blanket status quo. Now that I've decided that I don't want to sustain that anymore, I'm determined to apply it in a new way because it's still totally useful. Just not...as a baseline trait. Oops.

[ratbones]

Ah, I'm really sorry that everything has been happening so much at you. Here's hoping that you can catch a break and have time to do whatever you need to do for yourself. <3 You should absolutely be proud of the exchange contributions! I'm over here unable to write because I have the sniffles, lol. So. You are awesome.

[rlyqueer]

Thank you. <3 I do feel optimistic, if not a little nervous lol. If any other shoes drop in the near future, I will fight. But I've been doin' the self-care thing, and working on exchange contributions has helped give me something nice (and at times puzzling!) to focus on. Still gotta take the treat to the finish line, but once I do, I'm gonna party lmao.

Also, definitely gotta argue that you are also awesome. I see you updating All Consuming even though you're in miserable sickland! I'm dead to the world when I'm sick (because like you, I also rarely get sick—so for me, that means I have to be very dramatic about it when I am). Hopefully the sniffles leave you alone soon!

[ratbones]

Glad to hear that the exchange has been helpful! (And also the self-care, of course, always.) Making stuff creatively has helped me through some rough stuff as well -- just having something constructive to do, and then the sense of accomplishment at having a finished product. Hope the last bit of the treat goes smoothly, and then you absolutely should party!

Also, definitely gotta argue that you are also awesome.
Aww, thanks. I updated before the cold really hit me like a freight train, but I have been making a little progress still. But, yes, clearly our general good health means we do not deserve to be sick ever??? Very unfair??? :P

[rlyqueer]

Yes, exactly all of those things—it's very nice to give the brain something puzzling and creative to focus on and work out. And the eventual high it'll enjoy once the thing is done... chef's kiss It's great food!

And hey, progress is progress! That's great! Meanwhile yes, absolutely, how could our bodies betray us when usually we have such a good thing going?? Don't we have an Arrangement here??? The audacity... smh