accomplishments

[rlyqueer]

Watching the works count tick up yesterday on the Sundial collection was very exciting! Mine is in there somewhere, which I'm super jazzed about as my first exchange participation, and I'm also working on a treat!

I'm trying to be proud of myself for doing this much in spite of all the recent hardships. When I list everything out, it's pretty unbelievable actually. It's been a period that if I summarized it all to someone, it would sound more like the sad intro to a mediocre movie instead of a person's real actual life.

It's pretty clear that I'm being kicked in the pants to put the focus on me for a while—I'm figuring myself out and adapting to some big changes.

I'm also digging back into my projects, and first to finish is definitely this exchange treat. I think I'm about halfway through, and the creative juices are flowing (knock on wood!), so my goal is to get it submitted by midweek and have a couple days for final edits. I'm on a mission today to dive in as deep as possible and get as much done as I can before the work week starts tomorrow!

Comments

[rlyqueer]

Oof, exactly! It's surreal. I'm doing fairly well given all the things, but I'm also a little like "alright are we done for a while, can we chill a bit now?" Looking around the corner like better not be anything more around here lol. I need a breather!

(And yeah, it's basically like. I'm going through a lot of grieving and loss lately, plus other various stressors, and I need to take some time to self-reflect, find my new footing, and ground myself. Ambivalence is a defense mechanism I've been leaning too hard on even if it's served me well, and it's time to crank that down. Ughhh so hard!)

Also WHEW thank you!! I'm doin' my best and I'm determined to get this treat finished heheh.

[clevermanka]

Ambivalence is a defense mechanism I've been leaning too hard on

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*sidles toward the door*

[rlyqueer]

Ohhh yeah, you know. 😂 Honestly it's such a good tool, but boy does it sneak up as a blanket status quo. Now that I've decided that I don't want to sustain that anymore, I'm determined to apply it in a new way because it's still totally useful. Just not...as a baseline trait. Oops.